Last Night

Last night I sold my soul to the world
and as the cold eye was staring at my flaws
my thoughts were flushed out
and my future was etched in copper

last night the world saw the real me
the one I had hidden for all those years
A me no one but me knew it could be me,
A me I will never again be

Last night it all came unravelling
the scarlett of my shame
and the anger of my being
Nothing will ever be the same

And I danced and I cried
and I laughed and I drank
But I can't help but wonder:
who can understand?

Last week my world came crashing down
and as my head hit the boards
my dreams came tumbling out,
colliding with the judging stares.

Last week, reality came knocking and
all the nightmares were given birth
to a future I never wanted to be,
A future I want to again never be

But I did dance and how I did cry
But didn't I laugh? I did drink
And I can't help but wonder:
Can I understand any of it?

Tomorrow the world will know
and as you stare at my emptiness
your thoughts will run wild
and my future will be yours

Tomorrow I will be me,
for the first time,
for ever.
Tomorrow you will see me
and nothing,
no nothing,
will ever
be
the same.